Thursday, May 28, 2009

Nightmare

Imagine...
When you open up your camera bag, you find your lens detached from your camera body, both of them sitting "naked" (without the covers) in the bag...

Imagine no further - cause that's what happened to me this morning!!!
I almost cried (again) when I saw this. They have been sitting there naked for 3 days.

I didn't dare to check. Immediately I attached the lens to the body, then I took deep breaths. (Was afraid that I would pass out)

I can only blame myself - for assuming others would have the "general knowledge" of how to put a camera in its bag.

Diving deeper into negativity...

Monday, May 25, 2009

The Reason

This post is dedicated to the Stitch.

I was kinda quiet throughout the evening, not really because I don't have much to tell you. But I was distracted - thinking about what have I really achieved?

I guess it's a "depressing" thought when the best reason that we could come up for our job is money. I didn't want to accept that (though I myself is in a deep job-depression now).

To me, the main "driver" for me would be all the wonderful things that we could do with the money that we earned from our job, like...
buying Stitch dinner
buying my family dinner
sponsoring children
buying our new home
and knowing that we have money in our accounts when we need it for emergency

Maybe one of the reasons that I've allowed myself to dwell so deep in job-depression, is because I have forgotten to remind myself of all these REASONS...

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Lamps and Flowers

Some night shots taken in Boston @ Solaris, Mont Kiara during our coursemate gathering on 16 May 2009.

Lonesome Beauty

Flower by Mirror

Lamps @ Boston

Lamps @ Boston

Man and Woman @ Boston

Monday, May 18, 2009

Quiet

Been "quiet" here.
Been extremely busy - work, "part time" wedding planner, few dosage of "socializing" needs (which basically means different types/groups of gathering)

Still trying my best to fight off the negativity which came from the fact that my lead engineer is dependent on me o.O"

Today I really lost my head, and told him directly that
"There are things that graduate engineers are paid to do, such as reviewing drawings or attending courses or attending meetings to learn. Certainly reviewing HSE performance standards or design verification matrix should be lead's work."

Did that improve the situation? No. Cause the gap is still there (mainly knowledge on the project).

I'm losing the energy to even complain.

All I can do is - be quiet, do the work, and more work, and more work.
(20th is coming really soon.)

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Unstable 2

Unstable-ness has returned.
Been quarrelling with him very frequently.

Conclusion: very grateful that I have him =)