I thought I know what I want, but when I'm really arriving at the juncture, I suddenly realized that I was not as decisive as I thought I would be.
I think I know what I want, but I don't wanna force him into something that he (or we) is not ready for.
This tug-of-war in my head is making me restless. I try my best not to think about it but I find it harder to sleep at night.
I need... we need... a breakthrough...